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How to stop feeling Guilt and shame

1/29/2022

 
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Oh my gosh, she looks like she needs some self-forgiveness.
Let's be honest. We've all done something at some time that we wish we could have do-overs on. A rash decision. A time when we didn't accurately judge how our actions would affect another person. Our brains can give us all kinds of justifications that in hindsight seem crazy.  It's happened to me at work. It's happened in my marriage. And as a parent, I have probably a thousand memories of things with my kids I wish I had handled differently. Maybe we rationalize or make excuses for our behavior, but the underlying kernel of self-hatred can be a sandbur in your sock that you just walk around with. [Sandburs are these little rock hard seed pods with vicious spikes that were all over the place in the Oklahoma countryside where I grew up.]

What we really want to do is go back in time and change it. Each of those moments can still, no matter how long ago they were, become raw and painful if we decide to dredge them up and use them as a reason to prove our lack of self-worth. Bleh. So why do our brains do that to us, even years after the fact, when most likely no one is thinking about that episode? It could be that the people we think we harmed are well over it, so why do we go there? Why not just pick the bur out of our socks?

Sometimes it feels like our thoughts are thinking us. We don't want to think about that thing we can't stop thinking about. What we think we want is for someone to tell us we are forgiven. And even if we do get that, maybe we still don't believe we deserve it. We think we deserve to be punished, maybe forever. 

Here's the thing though – All forgiveness is is allowing yourself to stop feeling bad. If you are feeling unworthy or guilty or angry at yourself, you may be on a path of punishing yourself forever. But what's the upside? You can't unring a bell. You can do things to try to make up for it, but in the end, you are the only one who can change your thoughts and decide to feel better. And from a place of feeling better, you can move through the world and take actions that allow you to more fully contribute, and to having a life well-lived.

So how do you change your thoughts? Sometimes you might have a lightbulb moment. Maybe you can see someone torturing themselves in the same way, and you wish with all your might that they give themselves some grace and – BING – you see that in you. Again, parenting can do this. We see our kids torture themselves over things they can't undo, and we love them so much we want them to feel better anyway. One time I gave one of my kids a list of suggestions of things he could do to actively repair his karma, since there was nothing he could do to fix the actual situation. He chose to continue to hate himself even when he was offered forgiveness. In time, in his own way, he sorted it out, mostly. But in him, I could see so clearly how we torture ourselves to no greater good. 

Sometimes you can feel better by just waiting it out and allowing enough other memories to fill the space that you don't think about it so much. It's sort of a passive self-forgiveness. My son couldn't forgive himself until he'd allowed himself to feel terrible for a year. I'm not sure he fully has forgiven himself, but for sure the spikes on his sandbur have gotten a bit smoother and less painful.

A more active way to self-forgiveness is by changing our thoughts – going through a process of practicing finding equally true thoughts that feel better. Can you go from "I am despicable" to "I made a terrible mistake" to "I am human" in a day? Maybe not overnight, but you definitely can in time, if you want, and with practice. And you do have to want to. 

Maybe it feels impossible, but it's not. Maybe you just need some help. Maybe getting some coaching is one concrete step you can take to finding ways to repair your psychic karma and move toward self-forgiveness? Worth a try?



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